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This Post is About Nothing.

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November 13, 2010 by Renee

So, I don’t know that I have anything interesting to say. I thought perhaps I’d just write a post that is a little more about me, and a little less about my writing. Of course, since I am a writer, writing will creep in here anyway. Oh look, there it is.

Let me begin my me-post, by telling you about my week. This has been a rather rough week for me. On Wednesday I stumbled out of bed with a stiff shoulder. Nothing major. Just annoying. I ignored it and went on with my day. Eventually it either went away or I forgot about it as I often do with minor aches and pains. Thursday morning the pain migrated to the center of my shoulder blades, and crept up my neck. Yikes, I thought, that isn’t good. So I popped a couple of T-3’s, (really strong Tylenol) and ignored it. By mid-afternoon, said pain was screaming for attention. “But I gave you drugs!” I said. “MORE!” said the pain. I refused. I would not give in to pain just because it spoke louder than the other voices. Eventually it grew tired of whining and it’s crying dulled to a rather pathetic whimper.

Today, the pain said, “Fuck you and your pain killer withholding bullshit, bitch.I said more and I. Mean. More.” It moved across my back up my neck and into my right shoulder, ending at a tingling sensation in my right hand. Yep. I was in trouble. I couldn’t turn my head to the right at all and only part way to the left. I couldn’t even touch my chin to my chest. It hurt. Bad. I eyed the T-3’s longingly. But then, common sense spoke up and said, “Now, Renee, did those pills silence the pain yesterday?” No, I thought, they didn’t. “Well, do you really think they’ll do it today?” No, I thought, they won’t. So I hobbled to the drug store and bought something stronger. Muscle relaxers. Ooooh, good stuff.

Muscle relaxers are why I’ve accomplished nothing today and why I’m writing a blog post about absolutely nothing. You see, I’m not really good at taking any kind of medication. Over the counter ibuprofen has been known to make me loopy. Muscle relaxers? Well, let’s just say I’m in happy pain. I’m supposed to write articles each day in order to pay the bills. My brain is on a happy trip with the muscle relaxers. A trip full of rainbows and unicorns and without any focus or intelligent thought at all.

So, here we are. You’re there eating my cookies. No, it’s okay. I’m not really into cookies while I’m high. You enjoy them. I’m sitting here, my head cocked at a strange angle because to cock it at a normal angle hurts. A lot. You’re looking at me as though you’re wondering if I’ll get to my point before the cookies run out. I might. Probably.

Okay fine, I will. A while ago a friend said to me that writers and artists were all weird. I said, “Hey! I’m a writer.” She said, “Exactly.” Of course, I frowned and said that I was slightly offended that she found me weird. I thought perhaps unique, maybe a little flakey or eccentric, but weird? No. I said to my friend who really is a dear sweet girl, “Okay, name five weird things about me. Things that other people would find weird, not just you.” Because she sometimes exaggerates. So, for all of you, here are five weird things about me. Yes, they’re true.

1. I hate feet. Your feet, my feet, his feet, her feet; all feet. Don’t touch me with yours, I won’t touch you with mine. Don’t touch mine. Ever. Never. Not even when they’re covered. People stepping on my toes sends me into that dark place in my brain where the homicidal voices live. I shudder at the thought of a foot massage. Shudder and even vomit in my mouth a little. Kurt asked me once to cut his toenails and I said, “That is a deal breaker.” Besides, I’d need a grinder to trim those bastards.

2. I’m terrified of driving. Terrified. Me behind the wheel of a car = instant panic attack. I don’t mean just a “oh no, look at me driving. eek!” I mean, full on, sweating, crying, white knuckled, shaking, blubbering mess kind of panic attack. I don’t like cars passing me, I don’t like reversing, I hate stopping, I hate everything about it. I’ve had my learner’s permit (or G1 as it’s called in Canada) more times than I care to say. Never made it to actually getting my license. I’m a terrible passenger too. One way to send me into the same sort of panic is to head out on the 401 (that’s a highway) and slip between a transport and the Wall Of Death. I’ll vomit. Promise.

3. Sometimes I yell for no reason. Okay, so here’s my take on this one. I yell. Probably far more than I should. Usually the yelling is accompanied by profanities. My top three; fuck, shit, asshole. But to me, there is a reason every time. Sometimes my reason for yelling happened before the actual yelling, but it was brewing for a long time. So what seems sudden and unprovoked to those around me who are oblivious to their idiocy, is really a rational, well reasoned outburst. And sometimes I just yell because it makes me feel better. Don’t judge me.

4. Someone can talk to me for great lengths of time and I’ll answer appropriately and nod, look them in the eye even, and make them think I’m listening, when really, I’m watching my own private show in my head. Might be my current WIP (there’s that writing again), a story I’m considering, something that happened earlier, me planning what I have to do tomorrow, etc. Suddenly I’ll realize I’ve missed an entire conversation and get this blank stare before saying, “I’m sorry. What?” Poor Kurt. Happens daily to him.

5. I PREFER to be left alone. In fact, I’d happily stay in my house, never speaking to another soul face-to-face for days. Give me coffee, cigarettes and something with which to write, a book, and I’ll get along just fine. Okay, so I’ll explain. I enjoy company. I have lots of friends. But I don’t like said friends coming over unannounced and fucking up my day. I plan each day that I have without kids to the minute. I have only so much time to accomplish writing for money, writing for me, and cleaning my house. If you show up without calling, I will snap. If you call and I don’t answer, that means I don’t want company. If you show up and I don’t answer the door, don’t take it personally, I just don’t want company. My own mother calls before she visits. Why? Because I have, on occasion, asked her to go home. Is that bad? Is that weird? I don’t know. I really get upset when someone throws a wrench into my day, my schedule, my ‘plan’.

So, according to my lovely friend, those are the top five weird things about me, that makes me a perfect artistic whackjob personality. She had a longer list, but some things are just too personal to blog about. No, I will not tell you. The muscle relaxers are wearing off and I’m losing my ability to type with my right hand again. So I’ll say good night, but I’ll give you some homework. Hey, you didn’t think those cookies were free? Silly. I want you to share five weird, or quirky things about you. I won’t tell anyone. I promise.

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7 thoughts on “This Post is About Nothing.

  1. Twills says:

    Numbers one to five are so much like me that I thought I wrote them myself. Though I did eventually get my license when I was 28 and am getting better with dealing with the Wall of Death. Jeez, but now you want five…1) I can only turn around counter-clockwise when I'm in the shower or the world will end.2) I rarely make my bed in the morning but I can't go to sleep unless it's made at night before I get in.3) I Windex the doorknobs in my house because I'm convinced that doorknobs are harbingers of death in the form of germs.4) If anyone knew exactly how much time I spend browsing online for stupid shit I don't need they would be shocked.5) You know how everyone has a special talent? I think the only thing I'm good at is having old men tell me how sexy I am and/or that they want to marry me, or else slap me on the ass with a vac-pack of ribs. Also I always seem to get attacked by homeless people in cities for no apparent reason.There. I've got more, trust.

  2. Gwenn says:

    I'll see your number 5, Renee, and your number 2, Twills, and raise you these:1) I tried to start a windowsill herb garden this summer in my apartment and I'm currently on my third go at it. The first time, fungus gnats took over, and by the time I realized what they were and what they were doing they'd decimated the herbs and were eying everything else in the apartment. I refuse to talk about my second failed attempt–still too raw. Take 3 involves me brewing and cooling chamomile tea and spraying the mint down with it every night in an attempt to cure the mint plant of its mildew.3) It's embarrassing (and a little frightening) how much I have invested emotionally in the success of the current windowsill herb garden. 4) My favorite breakfast food is homemade spaghetti sauce over shell-shaped pasta.

  3. It sounds as if whatever caused your shoulder pain in the first place, you're still doing it. Bad typing position, maybe?You don't sound weird, to me. You make me think I've uncovered another fellow Aspergian.Lovely word verification word: obonses. But now it will change. I keep thinking about collecting them and finding a way to use them.

  4. Renee Miller says:

    Haha, you guys are awesome. Twills, we share a special talent and obsession for Googling. Gwenn, I'm not sure if this is a good thing or a bad thing, but my six year old shares your love of pasta for breakfast.Catana: Yes, I was thinking the same thing about the verification words. We should compile a list and give them meaning so that they become actual words. What do you think?

  5. Henry Lara says:

    OK. I am very boring and uncomplicated, so it was hard to put together this list, but here it is:1. I tend to say random things to people because I get a kick of how they react. For example, I convinced a coworker once that I was masochist. She's a friend now, but she's still not entirely sure I am not.2. I cope with my ADD by being very OCD, which I cope with by making jokes about my "stupid brain".3. I just forgot what I was going to type here. Seriously.3. I just remembered. Something about bunnies (and squirrels) makes me laugh. Can't remember how it started, but it's truth.4. I can think better when there is stuff going around me, so I often go sit a bar with my notebook and work on my stories. I've ignored girls trying to talk to me just because I am focused on what I am thinking about (Hello! Middle of something here. If I wanted to talk to people I wouldn't be in a bar. Wait..hum…yeah. Weird.)5. I am *somewhat* antisocial, to the point that I plan vacations alone,hate celebrating birthdays/etc., and quite often prefer to spend holidays by myself.And yup, I am on the Asperger's wagon. Oh, and I was joking about the uncomplicated thing on the first sentence.

  6. Renee Miller says:

    Ah, Henry. I know your OCD well. It almost caused your untimely death not too long ago…but you knew that, right?

  7. Liz Fichera says:

    Just five? Okay, how about I give you two (cause I'm weird that way):1) When people say, "I apologize," I think it's the cheater's way of getting out of an apology. I only accept (and say) "I'm sorry." When I really am.2) Big dogs scare the hell out of me. Like my heart races so bad it feels like it'll jump out of my chest.

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